Apr 13, 2012

Seminyak, day 12

It's amazing how yoga can build me back up again. The swelling on my ankle had gone down a bit this morning so I managed to follow the entire 90 minute yoga and meditation session before breakfast, and I felt great. Centered. Energized. Ready to face the world, make some difficult decisions, and confident enough to believe things will fall into place. Somehow. Some day. The question is, will I be able to maintain this positive energy when I'm back in an environment that seems to surround and fill me with anger and self-loathing and hopelessness? Simply thinking about it now makes me want to cry. But I have a plan, a nugget of an idea to get me to a happy place. It will need nurturing, courage and a bit of crazy, but it's time to move forward. Like the Balinese healer said, I've lost my soul and it's high time I got it back.


2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Res, please keep us up to date on the re-capturing of your soul. This is interesting stuff. The "city" jobs that we do and drive us crazy - Why? To please parents and the internal voice that says you're a failure if you don't? (How do we kill that voice? That's a quest I'm on too). Check out Going Sane by Adam Philips, and this link...

http://opinionator.blogs.nytimes.com/2011/11/07/an-interview-with-adam-phillips/

Never alone
W

Anonymous said...

Last one...

http://www.guardian.co.uk/books/2006/jul/19/booksonhealth.healthandwellbeing