I finished it. The book. Well, the second draft of the book.
I should probably be more excited about this. Instead, I'm terrified. Because I've finally let the novel out of its cage, to run free and frolic and get mowed down by a humvee.
As of one hour ago, about a dozen boys and girls, native and non-native English speakers, friends on all hemispheres, have gotten their grubby little hands on my baby. They shall be named the Dirty Dozen. The jury of my peers. The ones who are 230 pages away from telling me my novel is shit.
At times like these I wish I had never started the damn thing. What's the point if you're just going to humiliate yourself and disappoint everybody? My friends will say, so what? So what if it's bad? At least you've written it.
But what's so cool about writing a bad novel? Should I wear that proudly like a badge of honour? "Hey guys, I made myself unemployed once so I could write the most boring 61,000 words known to man. Jealous?"
Okay, okay, I'm calming down now. I'm just one of those people that does not do well with being judged. And between the grueling interview process I'm going through, plus waiting for the Dirty Dozen's verdict, I'm not making life easy for myself right now. Talk about stepping beyond your comfort zone.
But hey, at least I have you.
PS: A shout-out to the true writers and fellow bloggers Karin and Sion for inspiration the other day. And the Montmartoise, for a truly inspiring pizza.
6 comments:
You can be very proud of yourself!! Can't wait to see the result lying in a bookstore!!!
Congrats, Isa. Girl, you inspire me.
As a recent reader of your blogg... I am getting more and more curious to read your baby... (before that can happen just 1 problem to solve: schedule time to read something non-functional)
On the act of writing: congratulations for finishing it!
Thank you, dear, and many congrats on the finish of the second draft! I am with Sion. Our conversation was so inspiring, I decided to sit down and start working on the young-adult/tweentastic idea that I have had for a while now. You really made me understand that I owe it to myself to at least *try*. You are very inspiring. I know you can do it. Keep the faith and keep working hard! :)
don't be so pessimistique
i started reading your book and till now i liked it
most of all the back- and forward structure
good luck
What a nerve-wracking time -- your creation is out there, people are looking at it, reading it, and you're WAITING. Stay strong!! It's gonna be great!
And congrats on the great job interview too. Lots to think about, but I can imagine (only imagine!) what it must feel like to see people valuing your smarts and personality. Good going!
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